Garden State

Author: Shexpeare /

This movie was just about the coolest thing I've ever seen.

It has got to be my favorite movie ever. No. Really.

Zach Braff is a genius, and Natalie Portman is my favorite actress. (I'm telling you, she is fantastic.)
Watch the trailer:

"You know what I do when I feel completely unoriginal. I make a noise, or I do something that no one has ever done before, and then I can feel unique again, even if it’s only for like, a second."
"So no one's ever done that before?"
"No not in this spot no, you’ve just witnessed a completely original moment in human history. Its refreshing you should try it. Come on, what are you shy? This is your one opportunity to do something that no one has done before, and that no one will copy again throughout human existence. And if nothing else you’ll be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. This one thing."
"My mom always says that when she can see I’m like working something out in my head, she’s like, you’re in it right now. And I’m looking at you and you’re telling me this story, and you’re definitely in it right now."
"Its funny this necklace reminds me of this really random memory in my mind. I was a little kid, and I was crying for one reason or another, and she was just cradling me, and I remember seeing the little balls in this thing just floating back and forth. And there was just like snot dripping down my nose right? And she gave me her sleeve, and she told me to blow my nose in it. And I remember thinking even as a little kid, wow, this is love. This is love. "
"This hurts so much."
"Yeah I know. But that is life. If nothing else, that’s life, you know. Its real, and sometimes it really hurts. But, its sorta all we have."
"If you cant laugh at yourself, lifes going to seem a lot longer then you’d like."
"Can we have code names too?"


Author: Shexpeare /

Looking around myself, I realize how lucky I am. How lucky we are. Even after a harsh voice is directed at me, I still find myself wanting to smile.

"What do you live for?"
"I live to feel. Without feeling breath is just a clock, ticking away."

The night is beautiful.
I can feel.
Music makes me cry.
I have people who care about me.
I can laugh.
I care enough to cry.
Slinkys are fun.
Sister missionaries and Chinese Food.
I can feel.

At least you can feel.

I don't have a reason to be sad. It's okay to feel sad. But if I want to be happy, all I have to do is remember, we don't have to be sad. There is so much to be happy for.

Things I love about Christmas:


How your parents drop hints about the cool thing they got you. My mom is funny.

Seeing someones face light up when they open the present you got them, and how happy it
makes you.

Sitting and staring at my christmas tree at night. It is one of those moments that doesn't end too soon. One of the few times I sit and think.. and I'm just happy.

Everyone is at their best during Christmas.

Merry Christmas everyone. It has been a great Christmas Eve.

A song for a heart so big....

Author: Shexpeare /

I think that Bobby might kill me after this, and I think all of you are going to think I'm weird. I know that usually when blogging I don't mention names in posts like this... But I'm going to say it anyway.
Today I did something I have never done before. Let's just say I stopped myself before I did something I would regret. Never have I stopped myself the way I did today.

And I have Kristi to thank for that.

She helped me to break a habit.
I guess... I guess I just can't thank her enough.

Because of her, I can have my happiness, and I can have my- soul back I guess you could say.

I suppose I just wanted another chance to thank her, just incase it hadn't sunk in, so she would know. She did things to help me that even she might not understand.
I just want everyone to know how amazing she is. Even though you don't understand. I couldn't have done this without her. Bobby is the best friend I could ever ask for, and I love her a lot. She is my hero in a lot of ways. All I hope is that one day she can see herself like I see her. And now you know.

Thank you.

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Bobby's Song

Author: Shexpeare /

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

Rudolph the childhood nightmare!

Author: Shexpeare /

Thinking ahead to the future, if you want to insure that your child will have lunch money everyday at school, move into a neighborhood where a child named Rudolph lives. He will practically throw his lunch money at anyone he sees just to stop the torment ahead of time. Imagine growing up with such a name, such a name as Rudolph.
The embodiment of every joke. The epitome of horrid laughter. The name that should ring social disaster in every child's ear.
"Why did you turn your nose off... Rudolph?!" Rudolph had heard every joke there was to hear.
"Could you say hello to santa for me... Rudolph." was a common comment, so was "Can you fly like the rest of the reindeers around here?"
And then one day, out of the blue... the new kid with red hair and zits would say...

"Rudolph! HAH! That name means famous wolf in german, what a loser!"

And no longer would Rudolph be the ridicule of all the school. Because now... now there was Rhonda, the red headed little boy.


Author: Shexpeare /

by Shmoo Posted by Hello

Asay took the soul calibur character test and guess who he is


Soul Calibur 2!

Author: Shexpeare /

Assassin wasn't on the list... but we all know I would have been him if he was.. Anyway, we have all grown to love this game. And we have tons of fun playing it! Plus you know, we seriously like choose who we are in the game. And the quiz is funny, so take it. Oh, and sousa, this is better than your pulp fiction quiz. HAH!

You are Xianghua -
You're used to people telling you that you're cute because you simply are!Your love for beauty and all things social makes you a positive force amongst any group of people.Although you may seem delicate and fanciful on the outside, you're a lot stronger than peoplethink you are. Purity, inner strength, and a sense of aesthetics is what makes you Xianghua.

Which Soul Calibur character are you?

It's okay... I didn't need it anyways....

Author: Shexpeare /

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Broken Scientist

Author: Shexpeare /

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
No one ever said it would be this hard
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me

Goo Goo Dolls

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Dear Santa, All I want is *#$&@*!!!!!!!!!

Author: Shexpeare /

Candace is home, what a cool girl.

Well, for newspaper, I was suppose to get people to write a letter to santa. I got Candace, Holly, Corinne and KRISTI (yes, you didnt really write it, but I count you as writing it.)

Santa my man- How's it goin'? Pretty much I just want a million dollars and I'll handle the rest. Thanks a ton. -Candace Garner

Santa- I want to be a princess at Disneyland so I can chill with Shamae like old times. Thanks for the poochie robot last year. -Holly Hancock

Dear Santa, or should I say FRAUD! I don't believe in you! Kristi Thornley. (The handwriting was Bryn's... but we all know kristi said most of it. Bryn believes in santa. She has to.)

Dear Santa,
All I want for christmas this year is Geller, he's way hot! Please! Thank you. -Corinne Timmins. (Yes corinne. I'm sure he is WAY hot. >.> <.< Yes.... you horny weirdo.)

I am a bird
Wearing a brown polyester shirt
You want a coke? Maybe some fries?
The roast beef combo's only $9.95
It's okay, you don't have to pay
I've got all the change

Everybody knows
It hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here

The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry

In twenty years from now
Maybe we'll both sit down and have a few beers

Everybody knows
It sucks to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
You'll try and try and one day you'll fly
Away from me

We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry


Author: Shexpeare /

I made a link to Lisa's blog. Check it out dudes!!! What a hottie. BLAKJHFEH!!!

Everyone knows it sucks to grow up.

Author: Shexpeare /

There's no one in town I know
you gave us someplace to go
I never said thank you for that
thought I might get one more chance
what would you think of me now?
so lucky
so strong
so proud
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance
If you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
a song for a heart so big
god wouldn't let it live
may angels lead you in
hear you me my friend
son sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in
I'm broken. May god bless me, and you.


Author: Shexpeare /

  • If you got in a fight, it is your fault. Don't blame others.
  • Life is beautiful.
  • Everyone is crooked. Everyone is a criminal.
  • Hollywood makes me sad. It makes me realize what people should be, and what they actually are.
  • To build an army of snowmen, is a beautiful thing.
  • I feel betrayed.
  • I am dysfunctional.
  • Even though someone annoys me, it doesn't justify being mean to them.
  • You can't tell someone what to do, you have to show them, or they won't listen.
  • How easy it is to break me. I feel broken. My heart is literally breaking.
  • Hugs seem to make everything better. Until you let go...yet, it still lingers.
  • You can cry hard enough to almost puke.
  • I'm fragile.
  • I didn't know a car could feel like home.
  • When I feel like this, only bobby can make me smile.
  • Star Wars makes me happy. Don't argue.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Author: Shexpeare /

"Our lives improve only when we take chances.
And the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

It's really hard for me to be honest with myself.
And when I finally am, I'm still unsure because I lied to myself for so long I don't know what's right anymore.
I do things I wish I didn't.
And it's my fault I act the way I do. No one else's. But it has been so long since I've told myself the honest truth, that...
I can't stop acting the way I do.
I don't know how to. And no one will teach me.
However, sometimes I think that is also a lie. I think deep in my inner workings I know exactly what I need to do. But I won't tell myself. I'm too scared to change. "