Garden State

Author: Shexpeare /

This movie was just about the coolest thing I've ever seen.

It has got to be my favorite movie ever. No. Really.

Zach Braff is a genius, and Natalie Portman is my favorite actress. (I'm telling you, she is fantastic.)
Watch the trailer:

"You know what I do when I feel completely unoriginal. I make a noise, or I do something that no one has ever done before, and then I can feel unique again, even if it’s only for like, a second."
"So no one's ever done that before?"
"No not in this spot no, you’ve just witnessed a completely original moment in human history. Its refreshing you should try it. Come on, what are you shy? This is your one opportunity to do something that no one has done before, and that no one will copy again throughout human existence. And if nothing else you’ll be remembered as the one guy who ever did this. This one thing."
"My mom always says that when she can see I’m like working something out in my head, she’s like, you’re in it right now. And I’m looking at you and you’re telling me this story, and you’re definitely in it right now."
"Its funny this necklace reminds me of this really random memory in my mind. I was a little kid, and I was crying for one reason or another, and she was just cradling me, and I remember seeing the little balls in this thing just floating back and forth. And there was just like snot dripping down my nose right? And she gave me her sleeve, and she told me to blow my nose in it. And I remember thinking even as a little kid, wow, this is love. This is love. "
"This hurts so much."
"Yeah I know. But that is life. If nothing else, that’s life, you know. Its real, and sometimes it really hurts. But, its sorta all we have."
"If you cant laugh at yourself, lifes going to seem a lot longer then you’d like."
"Can we have code names too?"


Author: Shexpeare /

Looking around myself, I realize how lucky I am. How lucky we are. Even after a harsh voice is directed at me, I still find myself wanting to smile.

"What do you live for?"
"I live to feel. Without feeling breath is just a clock, ticking away."

The night is beautiful.
I can feel.
Music makes me cry.
I have people who care about me.
I can laugh.
I care enough to cry.
Slinkys are fun.
Sister missionaries and Chinese Food.
I can feel.

At least you can feel.

I don't have a reason to be sad. It's okay to feel sad. But if I want to be happy, all I have to do is remember, we don't have to be sad. There is so much to be happy for.

Things I love about Christmas:


How your parents drop hints about the cool thing they got you. My mom is funny.

Seeing someones face light up when they open the present you got them, and how happy it
makes you.

Sitting and staring at my christmas tree at night. It is one of those moments that doesn't end too soon. One of the few times I sit and think.. and I'm just happy.

Everyone is at their best during Christmas.

Merry Christmas everyone. It has been a great Christmas Eve.

A song for a heart so big....

Author: Shexpeare /

I think that Bobby might kill me after this, and I think all of you are going to think I'm weird. I know that usually when blogging I don't mention names in posts like this... But I'm going to say it anyway.
Today I did something I have never done before. Let's just say I stopped myself before I did something I would regret. Never have I stopped myself the way I did today.

And I have Kristi to thank for that.

She helped me to break a habit.
I guess... I guess I just can't thank her enough.

Because of her, I can have my happiness, and I can have my- soul back I guess you could say.

I suppose I just wanted another chance to thank her, just incase it hadn't sunk in, so she would know. She did things to help me that even she might not understand.
I just want everyone to know how amazing she is. Even though you don't understand. I couldn't have done this without her. Bobby is the best friend I could ever ask for, and I love her a lot. She is my hero in a lot of ways. All I hope is that one day she can see herself like I see her. And now you know.

Thank you.

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Bobby's Song

Author: Shexpeare /

Looking back at me I see
That I never really got it right
I never stopped to think of you
I'm always wrapped up in
Things I cannnot win
You are the antidote that gets me by
Something strong
Like a drug that gets me high
What I really meant to say
Is I'm sorry for the way I am
I never meant to be so cold to you
And I'm sorry about all the lies
Maybe in a different light
You could see me stand on my own again
Cause now i can see
You were the antidote that got me by
Something strong like a drug that got me high
I never meant to be so cold
I never really wanted you to see
The screwed up side of me that I keep
Locked inside of me so deep
It always seems to get to me
I never really wanted you to go
So many things you should have known
I guess for me theres just no hope
I never meant to be so cold

Rudolph the childhood nightmare!

Author: Shexpeare /

Thinking ahead to the future, if you want to insure that your child will have lunch money everyday at school, move into a neighborhood where a child named Rudolph lives. He will practically throw his lunch money at anyone he sees just to stop the torment ahead of time. Imagine growing up with such a name, such a name as Rudolph.
The embodiment of every joke. The epitome of horrid laughter. The name that should ring social disaster in every child's ear.
"Why did you turn your nose off... Rudolph?!" Rudolph had heard every joke there was to hear.
"Could you say hello to santa for me... Rudolph." was a common comment, so was "Can you fly like the rest of the reindeers around here?"
And then one day, out of the blue... the new kid with red hair and zits would say...

"Rudolph! HAH! That name means famous wolf in german, what a loser!"

And no longer would Rudolph be the ridicule of all the school. Because now... now there was Rhonda, the red headed little boy.


Author: Shexpeare /

by Shmoo Posted by Hello

Asay took the soul calibur character test and guess who he is


Soul Calibur 2!

Author: Shexpeare /

Assassin wasn't on the list... but we all know I would have been him if he was.. Anyway, we have all grown to love this game. And we have tons of fun playing it! Plus you know, we seriously like choose who we are in the game. And the quiz is funny, so take it. Oh, and sousa, this is better than your pulp fiction quiz. HAH!

You are Xianghua -
You're used to people telling you that you're cute because you simply are!Your love for beauty and all things social makes you a positive force amongst any group of people.Although you may seem delicate and fanciful on the outside, you're a lot stronger than peoplethink you are. Purity, inner strength, and a sense of aesthetics is what makes you Xianghua.

Which Soul Calibur character are you?

It's okay... I didn't need it anyways....

Author: Shexpeare /

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Broken Scientist

Author: Shexpeare /

Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you, tell you I need you
And tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets, and ask me your questions
Oh lets go back to the start
Running in circles, coming in tails
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
No one ever said it would be this hard
I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling the puzzles apart
Questions of science, science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
And tell me you love me, come back and haunt me

Goo Goo Dolls

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know you're alive
And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

Dear Santa, All I want is *#$&@*!!!!!!!!!

Author: Shexpeare /

Candace is home, what a cool girl.

Well, for newspaper, I was suppose to get people to write a letter to santa. I got Candace, Holly, Corinne and KRISTI (yes, you didnt really write it, but I count you as writing it.)

Santa my man- How's it goin'? Pretty much I just want a million dollars and I'll handle the rest. Thanks a ton. -Candace Garner

Santa- I want to be a princess at Disneyland so I can chill with Shamae like old times. Thanks for the poochie robot last year. -Holly Hancock

Dear Santa, or should I say FRAUD! I don't believe in you! Kristi Thornley. (The handwriting was Bryn's... but we all know kristi said most of it. Bryn believes in santa. She has to.)

Dear Santa,
All I want for christmas this year is Geller, he's way hot! Please! Thank you. -Corinne Timmins. (Yes corinne. I'm sure he is WAY hot. >.> <.< Yes.... you horny weirdo.)

I am a bird
Wearing a brown polyester shirt
You want a coke? Maybe some fries?
The roast beef combo's only $9.95
It's okay, you don't have to pay
I've got all the change

Everybody knows
It hurts to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here

The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry

In twenty years from now
Maybe we'll both sit down and have a few beers

Everybody knows
It sucks to grow up
And everybody does
It's so weird to be back here.
Let me tell you what
The years go on and
We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
You'll try and try and one day you'll fly
Away from me

We're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
Oh, we're still fighting it, we're still fighting it
And you're so much like me
I'm sorry


Author: Shexpeare /

I made a link to Lisa's blog. Check it out dudes!!! What a hottie. BLAKJHFEH!!!

Everyone knows it sucks to grow up.

Author: Shexpeare /

There's no one in town I know
you gave us someplace to go
I never said thank you for that
thought I might get one more chance
what would you think of me now?
so lucky
so strong
so proud
I never said thank you for that
now I'll never have a chance
If you were with me tonight
I'd sing to you just one more time
a song for a heart so big
god wouldn't let it live
may angels lead you in
hear you me my friend
son sleepless roads the sleepless go
may angels lead you in
I'm broken. May god bless me, and you.


Author: Shexpeare /

  • If you got in a fight, it is your fault. Don't blame others.
  • Life is beautiful.
  • Everyone is crooked. Everyone is a criminal.
  • Hollywood makes me sad. It makes me realize what people should be, and what they actually are.
  • To build an army of snowmen, is a beautiful thing.
  • I feel betrayed.
  • I am dysfunctional.
  • Even though someone annoys me, it doesn't justify being mean to them.
  • You can't tell someone what to do, you have to show them, or they won't listen.
  • How easy it is to break me. I feel broken. My heart is literally breaking.
  • Hugs seem to make everything better. Until you let go...yet, it still lingers.
  • You can cry hard enough to almost puke.
  • I'm fragile.
  • I didn't know a car could feel like home.
  • When I feel like this, only bobby can make me smile.
  • Star Wars makes me happy. Don't argue.

Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.

Author: Shexpeare /

"Our lives improve only when we take chances.
And the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves.

It's really hard for me to be honest with myself.
And when I finally am, I'm still unsure because I lied to myself for so long I don't know what's right anymore.
I do things I wish I didn't.
And it's my fault I act the way I do. No one else's. But it has been so long since I've told myself the honest truth, that...
I can't stop acting the way I do.
I don't know how to. And no one will teach me.
However, sometimes I think that is also a lie. I think deep in my inner workings I know exactly what I need to do. But I won't tell myself. I'm too scared to change. "

I've developed a new philosophy... I only dread one day at a time.

So thankful man, I'm black

Author: Shexpeare /

The things that I am currently thankful for(in no particular order):
My Asian Mother's tendency to bounce around the kitchen
Mothers in general
Pumpkin Pie
Speaking of pie, village inn and hot chocolate
As always, chinese food and sister missionaries
Finding something I didn't remember was there
Being someone's favorite
My Not So Asian Father's tendency to make stupid jokes at the dumbest times
My Best Friend and Cornfogs
People who teach me lessons
Red Heads that are in Holly's show(They make me laugh)
Having a freaking break
And the list goes on.....

If I drop an ice cream cone and it makes me really really sad, you can think that is stupid all you want and it won't change how I feel. Just like when something is a really big deal to me, even if you think it is something small, that doesn't change how I feel.

Small or not, I feel that way.

To Indulge in Gratifying Bitterness

Author: Shexpeare /

I feel like I'm looking down at the ground. I'm falling. I was so far up, and now I'm falling. It will hurt. Things will break and rip and bleed. I will bleed. And I'm crying, because of the beautiful view. I know that I'm just going to get hurt. Very badly. But right now, I'm not even trying to catch onto something. I'm not trying to stop myself from falling, because the wind feels so good blowing through my hair, and the view...
The view is beautiful.
I'm happy.
But being happy now, means getting hurt later. If I would just grab onto something, I won't hurt as much later.
Heaven knows I'm not going to grab onto something. If anything, I'm going to let myself fall faster because-
I can't let go.
I never can.

What a hottie mchotterson. says:
what a freaking hot boy
What a hottie mchotterson. says:
I want him.
What a hottie mchotterson. say:
And I dont mean lustfully
What a hottie mchotterson. says:
I just want his heart.
"I'm in love with a thug" says:
I want his heart says:
That was awesome

Buried Myself Alive

Author: Shexpeare /

You almost always pick the best times
To drop the worst lines
You almost made me cry again this time
Another false alarm
Red flashing lights
Well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
And let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
So I could shut you out
And let you go away for a long time
I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way

And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away
And I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
But it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that
Nicer than that
With my foot on your neck
I finally have you
Right where I want you
Nicer than that
And if you want me back
You're gonna have to ask
Nicer than that

-The Used

Newspaper... people of doom.

Author: Shexpeare /

No. No I do not think I am cool for writing the thuggish language. I'm merely thug in the first place.

Here in the newspaper class I have Erick the MISTER MOHAWK MAN to my right. Then there is .... safety pin paige below me. Armon, the armor man.... dude .... thug to my left.

Bluegrass boy just left.

This class is going to be interestingly neat I can tell. No really.

Plus. Strangly Attractive.


Author: Shexpeare /

I don't know.

I do know. I do.
Too much of it actually makes sense in my mind. It ACTUALLY makes sense. If I think about...
I'm afriad to change that.
I don't know.
I would rather... then change? I'm scared. No.
I'm just as screwed up as the rest of them.
You just don't know it until you know me.
Not that bad.
You love me until you know me.
she noticed
It is built up.
I am manipulative....without even realizing it... and it has always worked. Until her. She won't let it work.

Defiant and submissive.
I'll bite your head off.
Who am I?

hi, i'm shamae

Author: Shexpeare /

Those things that I hate about myself...

I hate them because you hate them.

I think that if you hated what I love most about me, I would start hating it too.

I think I'm blogging so much because it is a release of some sort. And right now I could use a big release. I could use relief. And there isn't anything else to do this late at night. There isn't anything to do but cry. Or explode. But that isn't an option, not really anyway.

My eyes hurt. My throat burns. *DRAMATIC CHANGE* From laughing. Thanks shmoo.

To Force A Door Of Fortune's Alms

Author: Shexpeare /

More than anything, I want it to rain.
More than anything, I want to have that invisible dog attack me right now. I want to make them laugh.
More than anything, I could use that cup of hot chocolate and a late night sitting with Bob.
More than anything, I want Bob to want to go to Gunnies with me.
More than anything, I don't want Shmoo to move.

More than anything, I want to look inside myself, and stop seeing things I hate.
I am glad to know what is wrong with me. I'm glad you tell me what I need to stop doing. I wish I knew how to stop doing those things. I wish I knew how to-
Bridle the Passion? Bridle the Passion.

To Hear Your Own Pained And Cracked Voice

Author: Shexpeare /

I think we have all said one of those prayers. Those insincere ones. The one where you ask for a safe ride home when the meeting has merely started. The one where you ask for a good nights rest and a good day tomorrow. The one where you are thankful for your many blessings...

But not really.

You are just saying it.

But when you say one of those prayers, and that is what you really want... You really want a good day. You want to be happy. You are thankful. So thankful...

It isn't one of those prayers.

I can't stop itching over thoughts of tarnished hope

Author: Shexpeare /

When listening to the lyrics of a song, you usually get the big picture. But I love when songs have random lines in them that you don't understand completely... and even if the artist tried to explain, you would never get it. It is because the big picture of what made you write the song has so many things too it that they will never understand.
Because they aren't in your head. They will never understand, because they weren't there. They will never understand WHY that explains how you feel.

But that is how songs relate.
You can mold those lyrics to be anything you want.

They are so specific, yet so general, that they can mean anything yet only one thing. Your one thing.
Your life.

I'm happy you took the happy cup.

I hate you. DUH! DUH DUH!
FREAK FREAK FREAK! DUH! DUH DUH!!!! No venting could make me feel better right now. I'm so pissed you stupid stupid.... Duh.

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Real Death.  Posted by Hello

What are you afraid of? Why do you feel so alone? Posted by Hello

I walked across an empty land. I knew the pathway like the back of my hand. I felt the earth... beneath my feet... Posted by Hello

Whew. That was nice. I cleaned my room. It has been a while since I did it.

i love all of you, hurt by the cold

Author: Shexpeare /

Have you ever had one of those moments where you look around? I mean really look at the people around you. You feel happy in this moment. And it is like Heavenly Father has giving you a glimpse of how much he loves everyone. You feel just a little bit of that love he has for everyone. And you love them.

And you want to love them forever.

But like Holly says, when you come back from church, the world sucks you back in. And nothing has changed.

Maybe you don't understand.
Pick a moment when there are people around you.
People who are your friends.
People who ridicule you.
People who you look up to.
People who look down on you.
And think about how much he loves them. They are his children. He loves the people you hate. And he loves them more than you can possibly imagine.
It is possible you think I'm incredibly stupid for saying all of this.
But even if it is just that moment, we will love everyone. And we will want to love everyone like that for the rest of our lives. And you will understand why I like those people you don't.

One day, the world will not suck me back in. One day, that moment will stay.

what the duce?

Author: Shexpeare /

Strangly attractive boy came up and talked to me.
I swear I didn't hear a word he said. I just smiled and nodded like a twitterpated idiot. Ask bobby, she witnessed the whole ordeal.
Anyway, I'm not like this. I don't get tongue tied. Boys don't scare me. I'm not one of those people who can't just go up and say hi, or go up and ask them out on a date. So what the duce is wrong? It is like he has cooties or something.

What is wrong with me.

a place i knew better than myself

Author: Shexpeare /

All I ever wanted was a place that only we knew. A place that was ours. A place we called home.
I don't mean the place where we live. I don't mean a house. I mean a place that only we knew. The comfortable familiarity of love and support. To have the quality and state of being familiar. To have a close relationship. To have what they have. All I ever wanted was to be the person you came to when you wanted to get away. When you had something stupid to say. To confide. To live.
It isn't our place though.
It is my place. It is my comfort. My familiarity. Not yours. You have said it without words. We are merely saying a long goodbye. Because it isn't our place. It is mine. And that means you don't need to be there.

Have you ever had a life altering sunday school lesson? Well I did today. Ask Holly about it, it was just amazing.


Author: Shexpeare /

is a national holiday..... or so we are beginning to think.

Tomorrow me and shmoo decided we are going to HAVE FUN. Yup. That is all. Just have fun. We are trying to figure out exactly how to go about doing that, but hopefully it happens.

I got wristbands- They are sexy. Okay, sexy is totally the wrong word. They are just nifty. And they are NINTENDO wristbands and that makes them all the better. Yes shmoo, I know your wristband will always be better than mine. I believe it!

I can't hear out of my left ear. It is really freaky. I don't know what is wrong with it. Maybe something is stuck in there, or rather it is infected. Either way, it stinks. My mom was whispering something in my left ear today and I just smiled and nodded. I hope she wasn't asking me if she could throw away my chicken socks. One can never be too careful.

There are a few people that I miss. I haven't seen them in a while, but I do talk to them sometimes-- I dunno. Like chelsey! I talk to her once in a while, but I want to actually SEE her and make her eat chinese food with me. Or sara jane-- yeah, I doubt I'll ever talk to her again. And, well... Lots of random people. I just miss people.

I also miss being a kid. After being at shmoo's and watching the cool kid who took his leave very fashionably,(Fine, I'll leave *FLIES OUT COOLY*) I miss being a kid.
Now.... Shmoo has a list of things that she wants to do before she leaves. I am now making a list of things I want to do WITH HER before she leaves.
Here goes:
Find a freaking place to feed ducks. One. Last. Time. (Oh I'll find a way.)
A claw machine adventure.
Write notes on peoples car. (Uhh, you know what I mean.)
Have a dance off.
Watch THAT MOVIE. (You know, the stupid one that you will never watch with me. Muahah)
Have another Quackenbush mission of doom. (Or just signs, bobby doesn't have to know.)
To add to that, just another mission of doom. (The Slights O. Hehe)
Get dogtags. (SHOTGUN!)
Get someone to believe that my nickname really is, switchblade.
Show her the Oriental Market, and make chinese food.

I'll add more. There you go shmoo, that is how we will have fun tomorrow.

oh bah...

Author: Shexpeare /

My blog use to be way awesome. And now I just have nothing to say. I want to say something, but---



Author: Shexpeare /

We sent the boys on a ... goose hunt of sorts. It was totally random. We raced to the big hot dog stand, then we raced to sonic, and when we got there we left them a note. Telling them to go someplace else, where we left them another note, and so on and so on.

The coolest was when they got the note that led them to THE HOUSE.

Oooooohhhhh yeaaaah.

It was awesome. We are thuggin.

Barn Yard Poo and Super Smash.... Oh I'm totally samus.

Author: Shexpeare /

The Barn Yard Boo wasn't as bad as everyone said... but it still was stupid.

I was the grim DUDE, and...

You know what. It was bad enough that I just don't want to talk about it anymore.

Oh, and I'm samus. Grrr.


Author: Shexpeare /

I just read Bryn's latest blog post....... and it came with realization.
I mean before it was
"DUUUHHH!!! I'll buy you pinneapple, you can't leave you idiot. That will make you stay."
But after reading that post, I just started crying. I love my buddies. And when I have to think about all of you graduating it makes me sad.... but now one of you is leaving early. You shmoo.

Don't do it. Don't mess with jenesse's guns. Just stay here. We can pretend.

I'm dying. Poo. POO DARE I SAY!

The fantasy make up homework for drama class..... I know its simple, and some of it is messed up. But it took me a long time so I'm proud! WOOOHOOO!! Posted by Hello

WE WON!!!!!

Author: Shexpeare /

M V H S MVHS THE BEST!!!!! ::clap, cheer YAY!::

Oh we won. In the last nine seconds too. AND!!! The clock was at zero and we intercepted the ball!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!


Author: Shexpeare /

Watch both the videos. Bother. BOTHER BOTHER!

big ugly bugs

Author: Shexpeare /

"Save it."


"Dude, something is going to pop out and we are going to die. Save it!"

"No I'm just going to get this one thing and then I will save it."

"Yeah but if you get that some big ugly bug is going to pop out and try and kill you. Save it now!"

"Hold on."

::doesn't save it. goes to get thing and big ugly bug pops out.::


"I told you so! USE THE BIG GUN!"


"Awww, She loves him!!"

"Ahhh, BIG BUG!"

::blows up big bug. gets the girl::

"Now let's save it!"

tick tock tick tock

Author: Shexpeare /

It is funny to think about what makes me tick.

And I wonder if any of you have ideas about what makes me tick....
And are you right?

faces in the window

Author: Shexpeare /

Haunted House of doom.

I didn't even get to go in!!! All I did was see four freaked out boys. I want to go in. I'm not sure if I do though. I think I would seriously..... die. I would be so scared. I doubt we will go back. I think it would be wrong if we do-

I mean really-
We got our warning.

Let's not go back.

But it was fun while is lasted. Yes.... fun....

man is not one but two

Author: Shexpeare /

I do pretend in certain ways.

But not like all of you do. You are lying to their faces. So, when they make me seem like the bad guy, and you think I'm being mean.....
Everyone else is mean too. You just don't see it. They are mean when you are not around.
At least I'm shining through the facade.
You would if you could. You would if it wasn't "wrong". You would if you could get away without feeling sorry.
I'm not trying to be "truthful". I'm just not good at lying. I'm not good at being "in control".
If I don't like someone, they know. Most everyone else.... you can't tell.
Think that is your buddy? They don't like you.
This is why I'm scared. I'm scared you lie to me too. I'm scared you all lie. Because you are way too good at it. They can't seem to see it. So why would I be able to?

this is an audio post - click to play

Radio Shack

Author: Shexpeare /

The people here scare me. I'm posting from a radio shack next to chase's work (the italian place.) and I do believe that the man here is hunting me. He works here, so technically it is his job. It is his job to ask me if I was interested in the cell phones that I was looking at. It was his job to tell me that I could use to the computer, and that the controllers I was looking at were for the playstation. It wasn't his job to tell me he was also sick and there were certain ways I could get over it. It wasn't his job to stare at me and give his imput about SUU. GO AWAY!


Author: Shexpeare /

I just wanted to be able to say I blogged from the SUU student center.

We dressed up like punks last night. That was awesome. Then we listened to Taking Back Sunday.

That was beautiful.

I made my friend this silly little... "crafted" box.

I feel like a little kid trying to make her mother... the best gift ever! Not for any reason, just to say I love you. But I'm not a little kid. I'm sixteen. (Okay, that classifies me as a little kid, ask my mom :) ) And it isn't my mom, it is my friend.

I wonder what she'll think.


Author: Shexpeare /

Well see how we feel when we get back.



Soul Calibur 2

Author: Shexpeare /

As shmoo has called them in the passed....

Secret Identitys? Or .... the people that we are killing each other with in pass time...

There is always
Taki- Seductive.
Assassin- Cool.
Yusung- Sexy.
Cervantes- Evil.

I don't think I spelled all of those right. Anyway, how cool are we? We are WAY cool. So much fun.

Awww guys, I can't wait to beat you up! :)

the echo behind your glow

Author: Shexpeare /

All of you. Stop pretending.
Everyone one of you thinks in some way or another that you don't need help.
You deceive yourselves when you fancy that only weakness needs support. Strength needs it far more.
You are all strong.

You want to be strong. You want to be in control. Maybe you are... or you aren't. If you are... it will not last long bottled. It won't last without help. Strength needs support. Every superhero needs a sidekick. When Batman is in big trouble, no matter how dorky and stupid Robin is, you are happy to see him pop out of nowhere and give batman the saving he was waiting for.

Trust me. Please trust me on this. You don't have to be alone, and I don't care if you want to be. You shouldn't be.
I'm not saying you have to trust me.

Just trust someone.

Let them help you.

And as for you. I'm saying you should trust me, because I trust you. I know it isn't about that. But I feel like it should be. I know you are afraid. I am too.


Author: Shexpeare /

"At one point we decided to fight fire with fire... Well...basically... your house burned even faster."

I drink coffee but not really, taki, and spelling

Author: Shexpeare /

So when we went to media play and got hot chocolate... I seriously made the perfect mix. Don't argue. It was delicious. Anyway... so when we did this Brenna kept calling it coffee. Which it "WASN'T" Goooooosssh. Right bobby? I mean who just drinks coffee. That stuff is gross.
I don't really remember where I was going with this. I had a point but it has ..... well it is gone. Don't know where it went. Next subject.

I've discovered that many of you can't spell. It is weird. I hope I'm not one of those people who can't spell. Weirdos :)

Among us.... there is a champion. A ceasar's ceasar. A hero. A fighter. A violent stabber of DOOM. Her name is Taki. All of you may know her as Kristi, or possibly Catwoman. But there is another identity. (You would think she would be happy since she has so many, but I think it is because we keep finding out, so they aren't secret anymore and she has to get another? anyway) Taki. At least I think that is how it is spelled. AND SHE KICKS MY BUTT. Little f hole. I mean really, not only do you just totally wipe out my guys, you show no mercy in the underpants department if you know what I'm talking about? EH?! EH?!

i don't feel right

Author: Shexpeare /

Everybody's Changing by Keane
You say you wander your own land
But when I think about it I don't see how you can
You're aching, you're breaking and I can see the pain in your eyes
Says everybody's changing
And I don't know why

So little time, try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

You're gone from here
Soon you will disappear, fading into beautiful light
Cause everybody's changing
And I don't feel right

So little time, try to understand that I'm
Trying to make a move just to stay in the game
I try to stay awake and remember my name
But everybody's changing
And I don't feel the same

Contents: One Pickle.

my arm is yours to rip and tear as you please

Author: Shexpeare /

ever get hurt so terribly that you stopped trusting
ever get hit so hard that you flinched whenever someone hugged you
betrayed in a way that makes you think everyone is corrupt
lost something and got over it so much, you didn't want it back
opened the biggest gift first, only to be disappointed with the rest
had someone leave in such a rush, that you never said goodbye
anticipated the worst and been right about it
loved someone so much that you almost didn't want them to be happy without you
thought someone loved you a lot, when they only loved you a little
thought someone loved you a lot, when they didn't at all
ever been mocked by the one person whos mocking could hurt you


Some things are sad on levels, when on the surface they don't seem like they should be sad.
You may be hurt if you trust too much, but you will live in torment if you trust too little
Or maybe I'll just live in torment
Whichever you prefer
My arm is yours to rip and tear as you please

I was sick. I feel better. Thanks for lunch you honey bunches of oats! (You are my favorite.)
And thanks for the juice box.
(You guys are the funniest.)
Not the jello. Muahaha.

And shmoo.

You are everyones hero.

Just incase you weren't aware of my frolickers....

Author: Shexpeare /

MUAHAHAH! At the beginning of the summer there were none! AND NOW LOOK WHAT WE HAVE DONE! Corrupted you alllll into this. MUAHAHA! MUAAUAHAHAHAHHA!

And I thank chelsey. She is the one who got ME addicted into doing it. And now look at you pathetic foo-- I mean wonderful people.
Just kidding! I love you guys. I'm just slightly bitter about the whole "I'm sad, I will lose heart." And you guys saying "I'm silly, I will lose lung/colon/leg/FAT!" Yeah. Okay I'm not that bitter, it made me laugh so I guess I feel better in the least.... okay now I'm just rabbling.


  • Bob.
  • Shmoo.
  • Hoff.
  • Snoopy.
  • Chelpril.
  • Sousa.
  • Button.
  • Asay.
  • Lamb.

  • i will lose heart.

    the hot song lyrics

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Mmmmmm..... so hot!
    If you read me and shmoos choosen lines, its funny that if you read them right you totally know whats bothering us these days.

    1. You can see right through me.
    2. When I get close you turn away, theres nothing that I can do or say.
    3. Maybe forgiveness is right where you fell.Where can you run to escape from this hell?
    4. Todays the day it gets tired, todays the day we drop down.
    5. I know that only god can judge me.
    6. You know I love you so, you know I love you so.
    7. Pull me out from inside, I am ready.
    8. That's exactly, exactly what I need.
    9. And you say take this. This medicine is just what you deserve. Swallow, choke, and die. And this bitter pill is leaving you with such an angry mouth. One that's void of all discretion such an awful tearing sound. With it's measure only equal by the power of my stare glaring over you and over you this feeling of despair is never wearing out.
    (I just couldn't leave it out, SOOO LONG!)
    10. Children waiting for the day they feel good, happy birthday, happy birthday.
    11. Has no one told you she's not breathing? If I smile and don't believe. Don't try to fix me I'm not broken, hello I'm the lie living for you so you can hide, don't cry.
    12. There is love to be found, in the worst way.
    13. My reflection offers no apology.
    14. The story's too told to unfold.
    15. Doesn't matter where you've been before I'll love you like this. And she cries.
    16. You're just jealous cuz we are young and in love.
    17. All the pain I put you through, I wish that I could take it all away, and be the one who catches all your tears.
    18. I'd send the pain below, much like suffocating.
    19. I was just guessing, at numbers and figures, pulling your puzzles apart. Questions of science. Do not speak as loud as my heart. Tell me you love me.
    20. Hold on it gets better than you know.

    i think i just lost my best friend

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Posted by Hello

    paint myself in with a wall of blood

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I'm not vindicated. Don't let me slip away.Posted by Hello

    Wanna be a star kid? Take it off!

    Author: Shexpeare / I have to? Posted by Hello

    take away my shotgun

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I always need to feel special. Have privileges of significance. Only significant to someone like me. The quality or state of being important. I have to be my favorite's favorite. My crush's crush and my best friend's best friend.
    And if I don't feel special. I at least need to have purpose. An unwavering firmness of character.
    So it is new and it slices into my determination and persistance when my best friend is everyones best friend.
    Not only do I not feel special, most of the time I feel I don't have purpose. I've been told that it may just appear that way, and that I am needed.
    But I wish I felt needed.
    I am not tired. But one will be the day I get tired. Today is not that day. When it does approach I will feel it, and it will be... a peaceful day? A day for crying. A day to stop writing songs for what you do. A day to quit. Today is not that day.
    I promised myself that today would never be that day.
    There is a duty of firmness.
    There is a requisite purpose.


    in addition to my last post:

    I love you all.

    different people....

    Author: Shexpeare /

    All different people.... same group of friends.

    You are understanding and wonderful.
    You make me laugh, and you make me feel like I'm someone special.
    You.. lift my spirits, and you are my best friend.
    You knock sense into me.
    You :) give really good hugs.
    You are a spaz but you always quiet down to listen.
    You can act like a little butt hole but I know you love me.
    You are so different from me, sometimes it is awkward, but you are my friend anyway.
    You are ugly and you don't like me.
    You are not ugly but slightly stupid.
    You are beautiful.
    You give me rides.
    You are always someone I look forward to seeing.

    You are all my friends.

    Yes, yes that was a stupid post. But can you guess which sentence (or sentences) are about YOU! MUAHAHAH!

    list of the doctor

    Author: Shexpeare /

    1. If you knew how much it hurt you wouldn't care. You wouldn't stop.
    Because people shouldn't have to change how they are for someone else right?

    2. Sometimes I wish you didn't matter so much to me.

    3. I'm being replaced. With everyone and their dog.

    4. I'm so scared of this happening. I'm so scared but so excited. I'm scared to work my hardest, because if I do my best and people say I sucked then I won't ever try again. I can't be open to their attack. If I know I didn't do my best I won't hate myself if I screw up. But I should do my best- shouldn't I?

    5. I'll admit now, I'm "scaming" as you guys call it. Or "falling" as shmoo says. Oh dear, I'm so twitterpated. If only he would make it easy for me. But they never make it easy, do they?

    6. You know how you love a song, but eventually it wears out... this song just doesn't. It only gets better after time.

    7. Do it. You would think those two words were just the funniest thing ever. You.. you... indian man you. :)

    8. Maybe you do need me and I just don't know it. But my boiling... the boiling in my stomach doesn't think you were talking about yourself.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Read it. Describes exactly how I feel sometimes. It scares me.. the fact that I can be replaced. And it doesn't always have to be The One who replaces me.

    biscuit eff

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Tonight was way fun guys. And I stole the ugly cuff back. (Hoffman, you love me!! :) Err, i hope you do.) Seriously. We need to play more often, even though... we do that a lot.
    I feel slightly bad about the "ditching" and stuff. But I STILL HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!

    Note: I will ... add something funny later. I'm too tired to think about something witty and giggly. ...I'm black.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    More FAT-NASTIC lyrics:
    Silence Must Be Heard by Enigma
    Look into the others eyes, many frustrations
    Read between the lines, no words just vibrations
    Don't ignore hidden desires Pay attention, you're playing with fire
    Silence must be heard, noise should be observed The time has come to learn, that silence ... Silence must be heard
    Or diamonds will burn, friendly cards will turn Cause silence has the right to be heard
    People talk too much for what they have to say Words without a meaning, just fading away Silence must be heard, noise should be observed
    The time has come to learn, that silence ... Silence must be heard
    Or diamonds will burn, friendly cards will turn
    Cause silence has the right to be heard

    NOTE: Enigma always has wonderful lyrics. They are just... beautiful. But one line "The soul belongs to GOD but the body belongs to us." HAHAH The body totally belongs to god. What poo monkeys. Anyhoos, you should check them out. Love their stuff.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    You are watching a superhero in his "final" showdown with the villian. And it comes down to the end, that situation where the villian is hanging on for dear life, and he/she begs for mercy. You know that if it was switched, if the superhero was going to die, and begged for help, the villian would surely kill him/her. And you hate that villian so much, that you're hoping for once, the superhero will just let the villian fall to his/her death. Just this once. But the superhero never does that. The superhero always does the right thing.

    Can you imagine how hard that is? Think of a person you hate. That feeling... if you knew that right after you saved them they were just going to attack you again. They would still be that horrible person you despise, they would still slaughter, kill, and rape. Nothing would change-
    Would you save them?
    Most of us wouldn't.
    Compare that to smaller situations in your own life.
    Doing the right thing, being the superhero-- It hurts. I'm guessing that is why most people choose to be the punisher in situations. You tell yourself you aren't the villian, but you aren't the superhero either.
    So where does that leave us?

    The Flow Jump Dance

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Believe me. It was beautiful.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    I don't like my new blog layout.
    It is stupid.
    Retarded. Yeah you're retarded.
    It is something that should go away and die.
    It is kind of like me.
    That is why, it is perfect.
    I hate it.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Remember the pillar in the Secret Garden.
    Well, this show doesn't make up for that.
    But it is still good. I enjoyed it. You should go see it.

    I hate when something of a dire induction(hah hah hah) happens, or somewhat of a large event occurs. And you want to know what happened, but people just tell you not to worry, or it wasn't a big deal.
    They could at least tell you "I don't want to talk about it." But no. They just pretend its not there.
    This bothers me.

    NOTE: I'm sure that I do it to people too. How annoying. I also suppose that don't worry about it, and it wasn't a big deal, kind of MEAN I don't want to talk about it. Oh well.

    when everything else is duh, shmoo isn't duh

    maybe tomorrow

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Tasha: Hey wanna hang out?
    "Friend": No.
    Tasha: Why?
    "Friend": Because...I HATE YOU!!!
    Tasha: Oh, okay, maybe tomorrow then.

    dot dot dot

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Tasha: The Love. It flows. All over the freaking place!
    Kristi: I love you too.

    HAHAH! SOOOO FUNNY!! Kristi, you are my favorite. That is just hilarious to me for some reason. I couldn't take it, I fell off my chair. Yes I know, it was on text messaging, but thats WHY its so funny, because I could totally imagine her saying it. BAAAHHAHAHAH! That made my day.

    Don't give me that tone of eyeball. I thought it was funny okay?

    NOTE TO JENESSE: That post wasn't morbid!...Mountain View Theatre 2004-2005! :) DING!
    NOTE TO BRIT: *clears throat* You can understand this one too I hope! :) I LUFF YOU!
    NOTE TO NINA: Thank you for agreeing, I hoped SOMEONE would.
    NOTE TO EVERYONE: I just didn't feel like commenting so.. I blogged my comments instead. Leave me BE I SAY!


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Kristi's blog made me wonder. I played with my slinky and wondered.

    All those moments, when we feel weak, and hurt... are they worth the other moments? The frolicking, laughter... those moments.
    Are they worth it?
    Would it really be better to just be detached.
    We are all friends here, and we... have that power over each other I think. I can't be detached, I always get attached. And I feel hurt a lot. But somehow, it is always worth it.

    I couldn't be detached. I'm sure some of you will disagree, but I think the attachment is worth it. What do you guys think?

    if only i was that much of a superhero

    Author: Shexpeare /

    if only i was that much of a superhero. i wouldn't do this. it hurts. something so small... a pebble in my shoe. i could easily take my shoe off, take the pebble out. i would say i try to do that. but trying is not doing. i don't do that. instead of the simple way out, i cause something bad to happen to justify my hurt. if a pebble hurts me, i go jump off a cliff. to justify my hurt. so i don't feel so stupid about how sad i get when i have a pebble in my shoe.

    It was something that was important to me. Something so special to me for some reason, and when I found out it was just something she shrugged off... It hurt me. How stupid is that? So instead of just being logical, I cause something worse to happen, and I knew it would happen. I cause myself more hurt, so I can justify how much that pebble hurts. Because something so small and stupid shouldn't hurt.
    It shouldn't hurt me that much.
    But that is no fair of me.
    It is not fair of me to do that to someone I love so I can feel justified.
    I am a horrible person.

    Don't tell me I'm not, I know me better than you, and I deserve hell and a marriage to kemp. Damn me.

    if only i was that much of a superhero

    Falling asleep on the phone is a funny experience. And waking up later and still being connected is an even funnier one.
    I auditioned for the musical.
    I'm going to school now. You.. just have a good day. And remember... There are biscuits in my SHOOOOOOOEEEESSS!


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Nina says that I need to take a break from life and sleep. The funny thing about that comment is... I have been sleeping. If my homework is done and I'm at home, I sleep.
    I sleep.
    I sleep during seminary and astronomy.
    I sleep during history and english.
    I sleep after school.
    When I'm done with my homework, I sleep.
    For hours and hours at a time.
    And still somehow I find the lack of energy, that I must sleep at night as well.
    And I'm still tired.
    You know that feeling when you've slept in, and you just feel GROSS. I don't get that. I always need sleep these days. I'm... like a baby or a ...shmoo or something. (LOL) Anyhoos, I myself don't get it. I'm still just under the belief that life, just makes me tired.

    Note: I just came out of a four hour deep nap. And I don't feel groggy at all. ISN'T THERE SOMETHING WRONG HERE?!

    My Name

    Author: Shexpeare /

    My name is like warm fresh paper out of the printer. It is how funny you look when trying to avoid stepping on worms after a rain storm. That moment, when you've turned off the car, the wind is no longer blowing through your hair and the blasting music has stopped. It's that moment.
    That silence.
    That is my name. It's sister missionaries and chinese food. Anatasha. The name you remember when you need to be young and..the name you forget right before your head goes through the windshield.

    life makes me tired

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Like just makes me tired.

    my glass

    Author: Shexpeare /

    The glass is half full.
    The glass if half empty.
    The glass is overflowing.
    The glass is broken.

    Note: I totally meant to put an F there because today we were looking at un..tampered... shakespeare and s and f are the same. SCREW YOU! ::breaks down:: Okay I didn't mean to leave me alone.

    So.... school?

    Author: Shexpeare /

    School... is cool.
    School... is.... cool....
    I.. was going to make a cool.. (hehehe cool as in SCHOOL) poem. But that lost my intrest very fast... so.. Instead i'm just going to tell you. I like school.
    Not homework. Homework is gay.
    But school itself, is very cool.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    We finally found the fro-yo hippo. Luckily, a few days before school started (yuck yuck yuck YUCK!)
    But.. we thought we would find it in a claw machine, or at wal-mart. PSSSHH! Why didn't we listen to the chickens clue. He gave it to us. The clue: Biscuit. Where else do you get a biscuit but someplace you eat... like... IHOP!

    We found the fro-yo hippo... at ihop. He is beautiful, and we are making him a green tutu. And he likes to chill in kristis car.

    Bobby, he is a great hippo dude. A wonderful fat-nastic hippo. Me and kristis adventure for the fro-yo hippo is over, but it was totally awesome, and... the results are terrific.
    Actually I lied, its not COMPLETELY over until we make him a green tutu. But its still basically over. It was good bobby!!! I LUFF YOU!


    Author: Shexpeare /

    I think it is very possible that I'm just not happy.

    Or sugarloaf.

    School. Stupid.
    Friends. Stupid (no offense to anyone in particular)
    Friend's friends. Very stupid.
    Plans. Stupid.
    Itch. Stupid.
    Siblings. Stupid.
    Young Women Activity that is in a half hour. Stupid.
    Lack of acting ability. Stupid.
    Dirty room. Stupid.


    School. Smart.
    Friends. Smart.
    Friend's friends. Still stupid.
    Best friend. Smart.
    Slinky. Smart.
    Theatre. Smart.
    Chocolate. Smart.
    Clean room. Smart.
    Acting ability. Smart.
    Cute boys. Occasionally smart.

    Or maybe I'm just looking at the stupid glass wrong.
    No it is not half empty.
    It is merely overflowing with BOILING WATER THAT IS BURNING ME!!! AHHH!


    It is half full.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Alright, I'm done. No swearing, no stealing, no pushyness and crap. I'm done. :) And if I do, hit me.

    one quick cut

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I had some realizations without realizing it.

    I can't really tell you what they are. Some are good, and some are bad. But the ones that SEEM good might be bad, and the bad ones might be good...or sugarloaf. It is good for the moment, but bad for the future. Once I'm over it, I'm sure it won't matter as much, but going through it is a different story. That is going to suck. Like a poo monkey it will suck.
    I get attached. And to sever those ties..well it leaves discord everywhere. I'd also like to think that some ties need to be severed for us to grow. I'm not ready to grow up, and I'm not ready to face the world. It has become extremely close. Before I couldn't imagine replacements. Now I can imagine them, I just don't want them.
    On the good side, I know it is worth it. The good times surely over power the bad. And why do certain misunderstandings matter anyway?

    On another note:
    I like the you when you're around me. I hope you do too.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Main Entry: 1 play
    Pronunciation: 'plA
    Function: noun
    1 a : SWORDPLAY b archaic : GAME, SPORT c : the conduct, course, or action of a game d : a particular act or maneuver in a gaNme: as (1) : the action during an attempt to advance the ball in football (2) : the action in which a player is put out in baseball e : the action in which cards are played after bidding in a card game f : the moving of a piece in a board game (as chess) g : one's turn in a game 3 a : recreational activity; especially : the spontaneous activity of children b : absence of serious or harmful intent : JEST c : the act or an instance of playing on words or speech sounds d : GAMING,GAMBLING
    4 a (1) : an act, way, or manner of proceeding : MANEUVER (2) : DEAL, ADVENTURE b (1) : OPERATION, ACTIVITY
    1 a : to engage in sport or recreation : FROLIC to amuse oneself : make merry2 : to play and run about happily : TRIFLE (2) : to toy or fiddle around with something (3) : to deal or behave frivolously or mockingly : JEST 2 a : to take advantage b (1) : FLUTTER, FRISK(2) : to move or operate in a lively, irregular, or intermittent manner c : to move or function freely within prescribed limits d : to produce a stream 3 a (1) : to perform music
    (1) : to act in a dramatic production (2) : SHOW, RUN c : to be suitable for dramatic performance

    I dare you to play.

    Click the links, most of them are entertaining.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Celeste is impressive. That is the only word for it. Impressive.
    So if I can convince her to somehow take time out of her busy life, and teach a workshop (Playshop,hah hah Holly) to the Thespians at our school...

    Well, from that point on I'm convinced the workshops will be a success cuz, well, she's a really good teacher. And if the first one is good, they always come back. ::nods::
    So if I can get her, that will be, just like celeste, very impressive.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    We cut a pinnapple on shmoo's roof. It was all, MUCHY size and stuff.
    That jr. chessing-cheese...chebaco....bacon... cheeseburger. Jr. sized.

    Anyhoos, life is good. No one reads the blog anymore. Losers.

    Presidency is all exciting me now. Kristi is like, da coolest president man. She is gonna be amazing, and everyone else is thug too.

    My room is haunted. My slinky and the balls went FLYING RANDOMLY and shmoo swears she didnt touch them.

    My mouth is all cut up because of the stupid FRUIT. AHHHH MY TONGUE IT HURTS! We also fed the ducks, and Jenesse is a very good get away driver, even though people were mad.

    We hung out with Nicia today too, that was fun. YAY!

    Well, I have nothing to write. I'm not in an amused mood at all. Just. BLAH.
    Blah is the only way to describe it. So Blar in your general directions, blar smeared all over you!

    It looks as if...

    Author: Shexpeare /

    It looks as if Thespian Presidency will be a success this year. I'm really really excited. You don't understand the excitement.

    It also looks as if.... school is kinda soon. DUH! It would be soon. I don't want school NOOO GO AWAY!

    BUSTING OUT THE LOGS! Oh yeah dex, I mean dude, What is your SIGN! HIGH FIVE!

    Going to the dump is a extremely fun thing I've done. It isn't packaged fun of course, but when you are with the right people and bugs try to take your essence, well then its just fun.

    Unpackaged fun is the best kind of fun I've decided. GO ADVENTURES!

    Gorillas and Jobs

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I need to get a job. OH YEAH!

    I need to clean my room.

    I need to get ready for school.

    I need to wash the dishes.

    I need to know why gorillas are so ugly. And why the heck do some people think monkeys are SO EFFING CUTE.

    I need to play pool.

    I need to take a shower.

    It needs to not be so hot.

    I need to be a scared black man.

    See most of you guys on tuesday...... GO THESPIAN PRESIDENCY TRAINING!! I'm really excited, and scared. I hope everything works out. I hope everything.. works.

    just like me

    Author: Shexpeare /

    My earlier post about being just like you....

    Well now I know.
    I can be just like me.

    So thank you. You don't know that you told me.. You told me I could be just like me. But you didn't say it, you showed it. So thank you.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    I saw Cathy yesterday! YAY! I know I've seen her randomly over the summer, but I haven't really hung out with her much... and we kind of played for a while yesterday. I miss that girl...

    Macey's plays really weird music in the middle of the night. Who just plays Chevelle at a Macey's..... I mean really? MACEY'S. I don't know what I expected.... elevator music?

    I'm going to go see Taming of the Shrew at the Hale tonight. Celeste is playing Kate. She is going to be great, I'm really excited to see her. Isn't she the best shmoo? And kristi? Yeah. She is SO thug. :) GEE! I'm so excited! :) HEHE!!!!!!!

    Lyrics that hit the bone lately:
    "They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven But they don't tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell"

    "And is this what you call a getaway? Tell me what you got away with Cause you left the frays from the ties you severed when you say "best friends" means friends forever "

    "I lie for only you. And I lie well. Halleluh. Keep the blood in your head and keep your feet on the ground." (That one is for you brittany! tee hee! :))

    "And I'd be your memory"

    "You will never understand the joy you bring with you and how much the little things matter"

    Yes. Lyrics. Blah.

    Anyhoos, I have this dear friend. Who bought Shamae flowers. Do you even UNDERSTAND HOW EFFING COOL SHE IS?


    Author: Shexpeare /

    We were frolicking in the fountain, having a jolly good time.
    AND THEN THERE WAS A FROG! In the fountain. A FROG!


    Oh good times.

    P.S. It belonged to a guy who was letting it swim there and watching it.. What a dork. Anyhoos.

    Feeding Ducks

    Author: Shexpeare /

    That is what I want to do right now. I want to feed the ducks. Something is missing. Something in my life has decided that it has the right to a vacation every once in a while and it has left me in a mess. Whatever that something is... well it needs to come back. I think I'll find it if I feed the ducks. ::nods:: Yeah, that is where it is. It must be feeding the ducks.

    The last few days have been eventful. I've had so many emotions going on at once, and I'm really confused about a lot of things. But things seem to be looking up. I'm really really excited about Friday night... GEE!

    So many emotions.
    Among those though, have been sadness, jealousy, blah and the occasional GEE.


    Things ARE looking up.

    We stole our pictures back from Fro-Yo. Muahahahahahhahaha. I don't know why I just said "Stole back" since they were never really ours. But we took them.

    Today I almost tried to steal fortune cookies, but that didn't work out. Those "sampo ladies" sure do keep an eye out. OH! And I made a big book of happiness. I need to name it something besides the big book of happiness, like.. like... My Biscuit. Yes. We shall call it My Biscuit. (I don't know either... ::shrugs::) Anyhoos, My Biscuit is fantastic, and it makes me really really happy. Maybe I'll show it to you guys sometime. Most of you are in it. Though I've yet to put everything.

    Duh, I was sitting on my kitchen floor talking on the phone in the dark. I LOVE doing that. And I was really happy doing it, but one of our phones was gay, (probably mine, it ALWAYS goes for the dudes) and now the person's phone is saying their phone is busy. But what about call waiting? I'm so confused and I wanted to talk. OH FINE. BE THAT WAY!

    Little did I know....
    stupid fights about towels, walking around the house, and who got the last piece of cake was really a huge issue about moral standing.

    What a fag.

    That is ALL I have to say.

    What an effing idiot.

    one act

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I found the One Act I want to direct.

    And... if someone does it this year.. it is totally okay...
    Because I have a BACK UP ONE TOO! That is just as good.

    It feels fantastic. I'm excited.


    Sousa is not fatnastic jenesse... he is FAT-NASTY! MUAHAHAH!
    For Sousa: Just teasing man.
    For everyone but sousa: TOTALLY NOT KIDDING! What a nasty kid!
    For Sousa: I'm so teasing.


    Author: Shexpeare /

    I walked home from church today when it was raining really hard. My feet got soaked, I was freezing and dripping wet...

    It was fantastic.

    Chocolate Milk

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    I miss Brittany Hoffman terribly. Whenever I hear a certain song, or watch music videos.... or anytime really. You come home now. DO IT!

    I also miss Jenessee... though she is mad at me. And she'll most likely read this so... I'm SORRY!!! I LUFF YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Shmoo, you bih.. OOOWWW MY EYES!

    Kris, you owe me five dollars beautiful! Tee hee hee, I told you so.

    Sousa.... Hey guys...She'S HOT!

    Sooo wicked!

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    Aww shucks kristi... thanks for pointing it out. Isn't it beauuutiful! ::huggles:: Mmmmm... wiiickkeed.....mmmmm
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    Author: Shexpeare /

    Katinka waited for The Scarlet Thorn to approach.

    She waited patiently as most ninjas do. She peered out the window and observed her surroundings. The Scarlet Thorn would be arriving any minute, to capture or kill her. She wasn't sure which was worse.
    Instead of the executive squishy that she expected to see, she saw only The Man. The Man wearing an orange vest... yes.. she was sure it was him. He was planting something infront of her lair. She was trapped. Katinka was sure she was going to die once Scarlet came.

    She pulled her sword out of its jacket and used it to move the curtain in her way. Her lair had just been invaded by hundreds of men. All of them now dead. But The Scarlet Thorn was something else... and she was tired and unprepared.

    There! She could see her! She heard a tap tap tap on the door and slowly opened it to reveal her most feared enemy....

    "What the crap are you doing?" Kristi gave Tasha a puzzling look. Anyone would give a puzzling look considering what I was wearing. A cape, a sword, and a black shirt around my head so I looked all.... ninjaish...


    This one time at band camp...

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Me and Shmoo staring at a fan.

    Then we decide,

    POKING INSANITY is so back.

    And kristi is our lead singer.

    Don't argue. LOL

    Tonight was fun. Though I can't say why.


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    Author: Shexpeare /

    The pictures are... very.. interesting. You send this artist a sentence and he draws what comes to mind.
    End result: Freaky stick figures.
    But they kinda grow on ya! :)


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Oh, I am a really good conductor. And Jenesse, now I know the lyrics. WATCH OUT!

    This may never start.
    We could fall apart.
    And I'd be your memory.
    Lost your sense of fear.
    Feelings insincere.
    Can I be your memory?

    So get back, back, back to where we lasted.
    Just like I imagine.
    I could never feel this way.
    So get back, back, back to the disaster.
    My heart's beating faster.
    Holding on to feel the same.

    This may never start.
    Tearing out my heart.
    I'd be your memory.
    Lost your sense of fear.
    Feelings disappear.
    Can I be your memory?


    just like you

    Author: Shexpeare /

    One sentence can sure screw things up... but it takes a lot more than one sentence to fix it.

    I know me. I know how I think. You may not understand it because I don't think like most people. But I mean well. And I'm not going to change how I act unless you can give me a good reason why. I'm not going to change how I act merely because you don't like it.
    Give me a good reason.
    I'm open to suggestions.
    And don't just say "Because it isn't something NORMAL to do."

    Am I really causing any harm by being the way I am?

    Then again, after all this time... maybe it IS time to change. So fine. I'll change. Just for you. To be Just Like You.

    Don't speak

    Author: Shexpeare /

    I know that kristi blogged all of this already...
    It's just so wonderful that I had to emphasize it. My favorite quotes from her latest blog:

    shhhhhh don't speak, just let it happen says:
    how are you this fine not so wonderful dandy groovy anti-happy morning day?

    shhhhhh don't speak, just let it happen says:
    you shouldn't wear pants sousa
    shhhhhh don't speak, just let it happen says:
    not when you're relaxing


    Author: Shexpeare /

    All day I needed something therapeutic... and I got it.
    It is called LAUGHTER! HOLY COW! Tonight was so much fun.
    First, cute little puppies. Then sousa, and cowboy hats. Then THE FOUNTAIN! YAY! (Girls, we are going to play in that fountain...... YAY! No. We really are. With no shoes and the theme to friends playing in the backround. AHAHHAAH) We went to sonic to eat and shmoo gave kristi what I would call a GENEROUS TIP! YUM YUM YUM! But it was just so funny.
    Jenesse attacked shmoo with an onion ring. We got goopy stuff on jenesses wallet (bet she didnt notice til now) and best of all.

    Triple Neutral.

    Indifferent TO THE THIRD POWER!
    Oh that shake must be good. But on the political side... oh dear. I'm never going to get over it.
    Brittany Hoffman. I love you.
    Everyone else.... heavens I was hyper.... As for the rest of the story. I'll let you guys tell it.

    Night Creatures.... to sleep at five.. in a closet.

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Shamae and I went to blockbuster in the bustling wind and practically fell over like evil victoria secret models in an "extreme" shoot. You may not get that. But the wind blowing the hair was TOTALLY screaming MODELS MODELS MODELS. Left tons of messages on peoples machines. (mainly juhneeesse)
    We didn't find what movie we were looking for.
    So we met Brittany at Target. Bought cookies and chocolate milk. (Mmmm chocolate milk.... MMMMM!!!) Returned to my house and watched Jay Leno (Do not use thermometer orally after using it rectally) and then Dharma and Greg. (That Asian chick rocked... oh dharma how i wish I were blond because of you.)

    Then we attempted to sleep at brittany's house so we walked... well actually we visited Holly and .. knocked on her window. Scaring the living CRAP out of her.  But she was happy to see us. We followed along Orem Blvd. to see kristi at sonic. But we knew we wouldn't make it so we called her and she told us not to come. AND JUST AS WE HUNG UP and headed toward my house... THERE! The Red and Khaki!
    The Target workers FLOCKED through the middle doors! FREE! RUN FREE LITTLE RED AND KHAKIS, RUN FREE!
    So. Amusing.

    Brit went home (WE WILL HAVE A SLEEPOVER SOON DANGIT .. and watch soaps.. MY soap. (It isn't technically a soap but I count it.) we will.) and me and shmoo then traveled to her home and back to my home, and wandered talking. Called Kristi. Poked Kristi. The three of us then proceeded to find brit, which didn't happen. (... sooo.. weiiird.) and then we went to Wal-mart. And got cheesecake and swoops.
    The most excited part of the night was though.
    I slept in Kristi's Closet.
    Not wanting to go home, because my parents would ask questions, and generally figure out that I was wandering and ... be all parental,  I slept in her closet.
    She made a little Asian Bed and everything.
    SO COOL.

    HAHAH I SLEPT IN HER CLOSET. Anyhoos... this asian is out. I love the Cowboy hat.

    (In later news.... we STOLE SOUSA'S CUFF. We were like spys.)

    EDIT: Oh sorry shmoo.. everyone... WE SAW MARIE OSMOND AND SHAMAE DIDNT LET ME SAY HI! Because I am embarassing. You gay.

    The Cage

    Author: Shexpeare /

    Kristi And I In A Cage.

    Sounds Kinky.
    But we were like... SUPA' HEROS! Oh the screaming and the glafin. (Errr.. glafin.. yes)

    Theatre camp pictures, you are SO interested!

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    Me and Jill doing a.....Tree dance. Posted by Hello

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    Stupid kid was so cute and he could sing like.... oh dear we love him! WE LOVE HIM! Posted by Hello

    Danielle is just great! Posted by Hello

    Hehehe.. hehehe.... the girl standing is the girl who does the RAPTOR! And thats amber, and then jules on the ground. That other girl is just an ugly asian. Posted by Hello 
    Let us not talk about what I was wearing!

    ROCK ON! Posted by Hello

    Dani and Polar Bear (Her real name is Anne, but who just says that?) Posted by Hello

    This is Jill. Isn't she adorable. Yeah I know. She rocks. Posted by Hello

    That is mike on the far right. She IS a girl. I told you. Posted by Hello


    Author: Shexpeare /

    Mascara and scratching your eye don't really go together do they?

    Stop mocking me kristi and shamae. And dodgeball.
    You all mock my stupidity.

    (Sidenote: HAHAHA DODGEBALL. Ugly 10. Tee hee hee.)

    Man shoots self in groin. HA HAH AH HAHAHAHA! Posted by Hello